I stared and stared. Outside my window, there used to be a fellow. Who will come each night just to wished me goodnight. he was not here today. he will not be here anymore. I was wearing a dress. the most beautiful dress ever. i look pretty that night. dazzling. i wore a necklace along with the dress i just want to look beautiful that night. as pretty as i can be.
i sat there beside the window. kept staring at the road below. i saw a beggar begging. but he was being ignored. he was no big, no old. just a kid who was poor. he look skinny and pale. he must be a ten or eleven perhaps. he was no one, just a beggar. man walked arrogantly, refusing to give him a penny. he looked tired enough. i opened the window. called for him. he turned to me. i throw him a pouch. his expression changed. there was a smile on his face.
the moon was round tonight. it was beautiful. i stared down again. he wont come. wont come again. he was married to someone else. trashing me out from his life forever. it was not his fault. its alright. it was them who forced him. it was them who separate him and i. they were selfish and fools. they are monster. heartless heartless. they eat flesh. they cut the heart down and leave scar to others. they are filthy. they treat others like dirt. i hate them. oh, i hate them.
my love was stole once and for all. left me alone. here wondering what my life will be. how can i live how can i live? as they had took him away. my breath, my soul, my mind, my heart. they took him away away. away from me. now and forever he wont belong to me. he was not mine never will. how can it be how can it be. now I'm suffocating. it was getting harder for me to breath. harder and harder.
i walked towards the bed. giving up on waiting. as i laid there. this was where we make love. this was where he slept. this was his. that was his. my body shivered. nothing seemed right. nothing will be right. everything here and there were his. everything. not a single thing left for me. i already gave him all. all of me was his. now i was left with nothing. i wanted to scream. the tears ran down again. no. not tonight. please. wiped it off. wiped it off.
slowly i took it out from a drawer. i look at it carefully. then i looked around. one last time. i looked at the moon and smiled. and then i saw raindrops. it was raining that night. i laid down. held it with both of my hand. pointed it out to my heart. i close my eyes. i saw him for the last time. i saw my love for one last time. and on that rainy night, i pulled the trigger. and for one last time, i smiled.
on that rainy night, i died.
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i sat there beside the window. kept staring at the road below. i saw a beggar begging. but he was being ignored. he was no big, no old. just a kid who was poor. he look skinny and pale. he must be a ten or eleven perhaps. he was no one, just a beggar. man walked arrogantly, refusing to give him a penny. he looked tired enough. i opened the window. called for him. he turned to me. i throw him a pouch. his expression changed. there was a smile on his face.
the moon was round tonight. it was beautiful. i stared down again. he wont come. wont come again. he was married to someone else. trashing me out from his life forever. it was not his fault. its alright. it was them who forced him. it was them who separate him and i. they were selfish and fools. they are monster. heartless heartless. they eat flesh. they cut the heart down and leave scar to others. they are filthy. they treat others like dirt. i hate them. oh, i hate them.
my love was stole once and for all. left me alone. here wondering what my life will be. how can i live how can i live? as they had took him away. my breath, my soul, my mind, my heart. they took him away away. away from me. now and forever he wont belong to me. he was not mine never will. how can it be how can it be. now I'm suffocating. it was getting harder for me to breath. harder and harder.
i walked towards the bed. giving up on waiting. as i laid there. this was where we make love. this was where he slept. this was his. that was his. my body shivered. nothing seemed right. nothing will be right. everything here and there were his. everything. not a single thing left for me. i already gave him all. all of me was his. now i was left with nothing. i wanted to scream. the tears ran down again. no. not tonight. please. wiped it off. wiped it off.
slowly i took it out from a drawer. i look at it carefully. then i looked around. one last time. i looked at the moon and smiled. and then i saw raindrops. it was raining that night. i laid down. held it with both of my hand. pointed it out to my heart. i close my eyes. i saw him for the last time. i saw my love for one last time. and on that rainy night, i pulled the trigger. and for one last time, i smiled.
on that rainy night, i died.
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>>it's just a dream that i got last nite.but i add up a lil here n there laa.so it just a story k.no biggies.
xoxo;niesa
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